E a r l y M o r n i n g E m o

E-M-E is what i ate for breakfast...early morning emo..woke up in a place that makes me go emo...wandering around the area of half passed Puchong for almost 2 months now..things has gotten down its slope again.

but after all, a newday has began, so let just go tru the days with new me..all over again
an early morning emo is not good for health, so i had breakfast with Samson at Ehsan @ Kelana..its been long since i had breakfast...
its like two weeks once?.....but still got fat anyway..so dun eat or eat..no problem ..still gonna be fat

reached kasturi kl with Samson...Its his first day working for my dad..was amazed with the way we working...eventhough we're abit rush..kelam kabut for while..but its settled after all =)

an extra hand do always helped..so today's job is abit relax..but..as usual..i sweat like no body business..lucky got extra shirt ...if not..sure like hamyu chaofan.
talk about hamyu...it reminds me of my EME...(refer to above, and don't ask further)
it reminds me of her...and it also reminds me of what i ate for lunch and dinner..i ate chaofan...with extra egg for lunch....and chaokuaytiu with extra egg for dinner...(sorry for my lil vulgar, if u spotted it)...
eventhough its not the best dish of all..but it do satisfied me..to the max ^^ muwahawhawhawh....

so after work...went to Kepong to collect my paycheque..Yippie =)
waited for 2 and half month and finally got extra cash to spent adi...actually not extra cash lar.. lionel is always a broke joker all the time...
but but...the pay cheque is lesser than i expected..200 ringgit less...damm..but nvm lar..

when OneU straight after that window shop, which i loves to do but hardly able to do so..cosz nobody teman mah..
but heck it lo..after work..release stress abit..so go hang kai for few hours..

Window shopping is way cool.. you can see...
you can touch..you can feel..but you didn't actually having it.. how un-cool is that...haih...

well..how i wish i'm loaded and capable of getting the things that i want..
unlike some William Guy who earns 20 gram a month..go be with him lar duh...

in this few hours..walked the whole One U..yea...new wing to old wing..to new wing..to oldwing..to new wing again..and to old wing again..then balik..didn't go up bowling cinema floor..
why..cosz im alone lo..takkan wanna go there wait for ppl ajak "eh..u alone ar..wanna play pool or bowling with us?" swt

while wandering around..bumped into ah pok...then yu min..joanne..kaizhi...took few pictures..heard that they going dinner with mr.han..waiting for them in LRT station..
how nice for them,, get to hang kai together...eat dinner together..
why no people ajak me nor ask me out for dinner geh..?
haha...whatever it is..and there i go..back to car park.. too tired till kenot remember where i've parked..haha...think think for 10 minutes only can recall the route i came into the mall.

then i saw kee ben, old high school mate, outside carpark smoking weih...hmm..wondering whether my lungs still miss the cigarattes taste or not.....heck it..
then bump into linghong, another high school mate of mine walking out to find his car..had a brief chat with him..he's cool and handsome as usual..unlike me..clad in my working outfit humps around OneU..

feel like going to the curve, to check out their xmas deco, heard that its nicely done..but then..after think think..better dun..later feel emo again..walking alone just to see the decorations seems boring.. cosz..i think i would not have the time to go to the CuRve before the 25th..hmm...sad...sad...

missed rainie yang chen ling @ 1U, wasted. i tak sabar wanna go back and rest..too tired adi..been working whole day..been walking all day..been emoing all day long..thinking of what she's doing there in MV..
worried about her.. wondering what she's doing there..watching what movie..
but not sure whether will she worried about me, only God knows..
but one thing i know for sure, is that someone..will surely think about me in a land far away..why i said so..
because she called.and as usual, things doesn't go well..so its better don't hang up the phone and continue my window shop

on the way driving home..a lil jammed here and there..from ldp to federal highway to...subang...tears and sadness can be felt by my stering wheel...here comes the same feeling i felt 2 years ago..feeling of whether is she the one for me...
from nic.. ric..and to ad..who's next....

""only thing that i realize, is that she can survive without me...but the other one needs me to survive.. ""


...and how hard the decision is there to make...?

trust me..if u were me...the answers will not be any both of them.
i rather choose to be with Me and myself only.

Ces t la vie

its 4pm..dated 14 of december..

Music playing: Acha & Irwansyah - Ada Cinta ~蔡健雅 - 走過的路 ~ 梁静茹 - Ces t la vie

what makes me to blog...

i don't really know..

i shud had just flipped my notes and study for tomorrow's film examination..

but..yet again..

laziness and stubborness had caused me to ...well, laze around.

whats the use of drinking coffee, or eating snacks that could makes me awake and focus

when i didnt really put the effort to read my notes..

haha...God know's why...

listening to music at the same time reading up some "notes' posted on the internet...it makes me wonder...whether is it the appropriate way of me ...handling my life..

well..things are messy than it thought it may be..just thinking about us..

i know that u've long wanting a cake on ur birthday...i did not do it for u ..

instead ..i've did so many surprises for my friends...

driving here and there...wangsa maju...pj...making wishes 4 my fwens ...staying over at friends place..sacrificing just for my friends birthday...but not for u ..

well...its just tat, we've long departed...leading our own ways on life..hope that you would take care and don't think of all the negative things ya...

hoping that things will transform into blossom of flowers...which contains beautiful coloured lively petals

thatwill gives us a headstart ahead for us..in the distant future..

walking away to our destined path..is what we gonna do...

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Happy Belated Birthday 3 "S"~

40 fourty

40 days..is the number of day i left my soul as a life of a blogger, and now im back to blog again..



in my period of absent, many things had passed me by, rough relay/friendship, moody emotional feeling, fun time with friends and workmates, exciting training lifestyle, tiring aching body...all this did be part in my marathon training life.

being an intern is no fun, its all about learning and experiencing working lifestyle of our own field. had some boosting learning experience towards my field of broadcasting, being a crew for impian illyana season 3 production shoot. opportunities like this are seldom come my way...it should thanked in much appreciation.

Skipped church for many weeks already...i certainly did try to make it, whenever i have break on weekends. but all this didn't really bring much trust and commitment tru the eyes of people. well, lifes like that sometimes..when things doesn't go the way that you want it to be, how much adjustments or sacrifices you do, memang stay and continue to be the same way all the time..without much changes..unless miracles happen..in whatever circumstances..

Chill la- - - - .is what i always tell myself..but well...how to chill when things continue to downfall..takkan wanna wait till the end of days only being approved and accepted by people..

but whatever happens, i have Him with me all the time. who protects me and guide me tru the days of my life. never will i forsake You, never will i let You go, never will i abandoned You for other things in this world. all i wish for is just a better me, a better me a better life, a better life..and a soul mate to be sent from you to me. till we meet again.

- leon -

To use or Not to Use..

alrite alrite..i give up writing this blog in chinesemandarin..
its like working 48 hours non stop..cracking my head in searching of words..recalling the lost words that i've once studied, and asking my friends the correct letter to spell.. malu man..11 years of studying in Chinese school konon.. haha
well..my mandarin sux..but..who cares..as long as i could speak..read a lil..converse well with my friends..and best thing is that..i could sing mandarin songs..woo hoo =p

wee..this week training was sufferating,suffocating but yet satisfying at the same time..i had fun..fall sick for a moment, weep a lil, laugh damm alot and sing songs in between working and resting..had some crazy time with the production team.

well..eventhough im such person that would envy and jeolus at my other friends practical training job which is better ...or doing things that i love doing..such as event management and get to move around to participate in big big events..especially Soccer matches..


its not that bad training in RC,meet damm lots of people..from actor, to singer to ex-local malay boyband and ... Muh question is......is making 30+ friends in 3 weeks consider as a big or small amount?..well..i know lar friendster allows us to make thousands of friends by just a click..but in the industry im doing..its more on like how many contacts u know...
anyway..craps...don't wanna talk bout it.


Few days ago, i've watched a movie that i've been wanting to watch since 2001..and thanks to BitTorrent..it never dissapoints me.

-Serendipity-
well..its a romance comedy starring John Cusack (Identity) & Kate Beckinsale(Underworld,Pearl Habour). This movie is more about them..testing and tempting their own fate intrying patience with overuse of Whimsy =)
you guys just have to see it and enjoy it..its kinda short..90 minutes..but its worth a go. this movie makes me believe again in Love, in fate and in magical moments in one relationship. and not to mention..love at first sight baby =p

i dare to say that, every part of my life, my happiness, sorrowness or when me doing my crazy actions..all of this have a story behind..and so does this movie..

"When Love Feels Like Magic, It's called Destiny. When Destiny Has A Sense of Humor, It's Called Serendipity."

to be continue

在我二十已年的生活里，我敢说，今年的我，是过的最忙的一年。自子缺少了陪朋友和家庭的时间，使我对我忙路的工作，着成了一个不好，不爽，不开兴的一种心情。 很想放气，可是又确不能够，现在还年轻，人生种还有很长握！

P a n g k a l J a l a n

Mulai saat ini, setelah kejadian yang menimpa pada diri ku selama beberapa minggu yang lalu,aku berharap dan berazam...yang ku kan lebih meluang masaku yang sehari demi sehari dibuangi ku membuati perkara-perkara yang tidak senonoh dan tidak membawa sebarang manfaat kepada masa depan dan kebaikan diri ku.

Melihati rakan kawan ku yang kini berada jauh dari ku , menikmati masa pembelajaran mereka di luar negara. Ku asyik berfikir, adakah kehidupan mereka akan menjadi lebih sempurna dan riang apabila habis melanjutkan pelajaran mereka.
Adakah kita akan ditindas,dibiarkan dan disaingi oleh mereka bila tiba masa merebut jawatan kosong.

Sudah 2 minggu ku menjalani latihan industri ku di Pj..dan ku dapati bahawa jika hidup untuk mencari rezeki adalah seperti yang ku alami sekarang, masa depan saya tidak akan jadi sebaik ku yang sangka.Bekerja sebagai krew krew produksi filem amat letih dan kurang masa untuk tidur dengan lena. Kekadang sahaja hanya ada sehari dua untuk rehat.

Jadi itu, saya berharap dan berazam bahwa saya dapat mengaplikasikan semua teori teori dan ilmu yang telah ku belajar di uni, gabungkannya pada masa praktical ku..supaya ilmu ku terhadap bidang yang saya belajar skarang akan bertambah dengan pesat.

Masa seorang manusia di bumi, adalah pendek dan masih tinggal banyak ilmu pengetahuan yang boleh kita belajar. Jadi, kawan kawan saya yang ku jarang bertemu, haraplah u orang faham.

bila tiba masa yang sesuai, ku akan timbul di hadapan mu, meluangkan masa masa manis yang kita akan menikmati bersama - menuju ke pangkal jalan kita -

janji lionel~

Accueillir -June- | | | Au Revoir -May-

well well well, another month is ending soon, and here comes the middle year of 2007.
First half of my year, i could say that..i've done nothing interesting, except for the whole load of uni assignments that makes people looking for Tanjung Rambutan Map.(try Yahoo)

For the month of May, i guess its the busiest day of the month so far. Nope, not bz with homework as im having my semester break until early June, where my intern with Red Communication will kick off..(worried to the max i tell u)

-List of buziNess-
1.Eat
2.Sleep
3. Shit
4.ok i'll cut the crap
5.Working part time as a driver for Adsvantage
6.Working part time again as a logistic assistant
7.Working part time again and again...(this time with KLpac doing short film)
8.Working part time as a maid...cleaning dog's pee and poo whenever im home ALONE..

haih...how i wish that i could experience a Dog's life..not forever, but maybe during my semester break only....
If i own a power of changing into any dog breed and back to human form at anytime..i would choose to be hmm..

Paris Hilton's Chi hua hua maybe =) wee~ small , cute and everything nice.
enjoying being serve food 5 meals a day..i can just bark non stop, make my owner goes Mad and give whatever that i want..(dog snacks, ice cream or maybe~) .. best thing, i can pee and poo whenever, wherever i want..
well, im not gonna talk about the sexual issue here, but.. have to mention as well lar,

a dog's xxx life is just like Touch & GO..
"I come, I see, i Laid"
in the middle of street, behind the alley - if you know what i mean-

ok, i'll stop with the dog thing. im just expressing my sieness everyday taking care of my dogs..
not really consider it as MY DOGS..because...3 of that bugger are more close to my sister..
well..jeolusy kills sometimes ^^ but...whatever lar.. tak perlu hirau..

Accueillir June Au Revoir May, is what im gonna do..
accepting another challenging month ahead, dealing with my industrial training, managing my
- eat shit sleep- time, and focusing on You, who gives us peace, guides & protect us your beloved Children and You determine our plan, succeeded through You to Us.

Leviticus 26:6

6 " 'I will grant peace in the land, and you will lie down and no one will make you afraid. I will remove savage beasts from the land, and the sword will not pass through your country.

mOmEnTz of tRanQuiLity F|2ienDship

Sudah 2 minggu since PD TRIP has passed us by..memories of happiness, enjoyment, relaxation and fellowship in knowing one another has certainly bring good into our friendship..

Here i am..thinking when and where would be our next destination trip. so that we would get back together and experience the fun again

Hmm, here's a friend of mine who have a great personality that envy me towards her. a person that helped me go through the toughness in Uni Life. Appreciate her lots.

i hope that she felt the same way as i do. hmm..-xoxo- anyway

- Yoke Mun-
A good observer with some sense of humour
and toughnest within her..damm positive thinking
sometimes and ..she's damm suka drink
those 3 in 1 instant coffee wan...damm crazy fella

And oF Cosz, Cam-whoring is a must in a vacation trip...so,here's a snapshots of us..

Before heading to the Bananas boat..

GT Queen for my car..FOC gila..(Siau Yong)

Us playing card games

(Celyn and Yoke Mun) Big Time PoSers..

Julio, Lionel, Joanne

Drivers of PD.. (L-R: Jo, Leo , Vic)

Lionel & Julio making waves..

- Brokeback Seaside - Gaying into cinemas this May 2007

2 little Heroes

This blog is written especially to my 2 new heroes that came into my household.

2 cute lil pups that would surely enrich our lives into a happier and wonderful life.
that's why people call them the man's best friend ^^



the 1 st dog .
Name: Jack
Breed: Jack Russel Terrier
Age: 4 months adi
Sex: Male Virgin
Location: Garden Yard



And the 2nd dog . the materialistic pUpz

Name: Monney (Sounds like MONEY)
Breed: Poodle
Age: 8 Weeks
Sex: Female Virgin
Location: . . someone's Cage ^_||

both of them damm cute rite..

and not to mention also my old dog..haih..she damm charm adi..
have to give face to both of them..

this pic DAMM EMO rite.. =p

Name: Tinggi (yes..that "tall")
Breed: ABC / ROJAK , or better word, "Chap pa Lang" DOg
Age: Damm old ok..7 years adi
Sex: Forever a Female Virgin
(Why forever, because tiub fellapio-nya sudah di potong)
Location: Same as Jack

that's all for my household dogs..

among all..6 dogs..now left only 3...haih..
Harimau Mati meninggalkan Belang, Anjing mati meninggal kan Ingatan Terindah

The mask behind my face

today...what i had experienced..will never be know of by my unimates nor anyone..
except for a few. it's not that i am the one to be blame for my emoing and bad mood attitude..
it's that......i can't take it anymore..i had loss the feel of going and giving all out to be the one i should be..
the one that would lead..and others to follow..
i can't be the one that i ought to be..
but to sway back..being a contestant of a game show obeying strict rules that say..
"do follow us, or we will FAIL u"

my mind is playing mind games with me..
whether i should quit studying..or just working for my dad..
well..if i were to quit..it's stupid..really dumb and not worthy at all.

day after day..i meet and bump into old friends..
hi bye friends..
sms friends..
friendster's friends..
primary mates friends..
secondary school friends..
church friends..
whoever friends lah..
but..all of them..could not stay long and close..to me..

yoke mei said to me..that i always have friends around and do know everyone in Utar..
well..she gotta be joking.
if i do know everyone in utar..why does i have the sense of lost when im standing in the middle of my campus foyer..
no friends to support me..
can't laugh and smile with true loyal friends that will carry and support u up when u fall into the deep blue ocean full of dangerous animals.

yea..in fact i have tonnes of friends..
have over 800+ friends in my friendster list..
everytime when i look at the website..
i tends to worried..whether what if friendster.com gulung tikar..bankrap one day and all my contacts are gone..
will my existence still remains in all of my friends heart..
the one that came to know me before...

friends..i think im lost..
in watever things that i do..i always succumb to the negative thoughts that always flying around me.

so i hope that..in whatever things that i do..
do critic me..i wanna change.
seriously..
i really wanna change..
to someone that is useful and matured..

i can't live my 21 years old life like this...as it's killing me..
it's killing me...