i hope to be stronger.

It's been a years since we talked, I miss you more then ever.. though, im trying to move on with a new guy, its still as hard as anything when i see our pictures. We both thought we were meant for eachother. We even talked about our plans after school together and living our lives together. Its going to be hard, but I know someday I will be able to be fully over you. I honestly thought you were the one, and I still cry myself to sleep some nights, but I know I will be okay.

peacefully quiet storm.

当宿舍静了下来，只有风扇转动的声音时，我才能写些字说些什么。
从来不曾在豆瓣上写什么，因为豆瓣上没有我熟悉的人，都在qq上偶尔更新一下。
这几天看了好多肥肥鱼写的东西，在让我感受到美好的同时，也让我有种表达自己尝试着能否给别人也带去美好的想法，突然觉得那是件幸福的事情，尽管我从来没有好的文笔，但总觉得试图表达出来的思想或什么才是最重要的吧。
其实一个人回归到内心回归到自己的时候，才是最安定最踏实的时候，好过一群人的喧闹。两个人从不见面，只是听他的歌，看他写的东西，我就会迅速地喜欢上他，甚至要去遇见他，一起行走在路上。也许对流浪歌手有很深的情结吧，有天发现自己做成流浪歌手的几率不太大时，我便想做一个光荣的流浪歌手的情人。肥肥鱼说的五个字：温暖的流浪。我永远会记得的。
一部叫做《归途列车》的纪录片，让我忍不住哭泣，纪录片是我认为最有价值的作品，好的纪录片给人带来感动，震撼，给社会一个警醒。
毕业了，最后一次使用半价火车票的权利，我说不能浪费了，买个最远行程的车次吧。,
南阳到郑州，郑州再到拉萨的通票，总共才194，太便宜了。
我想说，吃肉不好，第一对动物特别不好，第二对自己身体也特别不好。一下子没法戒掉的话，要尽量每次减少食用量，当吃肉的人少了，市场没了，杀动物的人就少了。
还有每次聚餐的时候剩很多要记得打包走一些，不要觉得不好意思，在回去的路上，也许会遇见些流浪猫流浪狗，分给他们，他们就会吃很饱很好的一顿饭了。
我是个农村的孩子，没出过国，没坐过飞机，但我想这不妨碍我行走，身上带了仅有的五百块钱，我想足够支撑我这次的行走了。

fly away

months has passed me by...
had endure much pain, pleasure, stress, tension tight work schedule...
not enough time for myself..
to rest, to play, to socialize, to meet new people, to dance
to sports, to giggles, to laugh, to jump around, to skip ropes, to pool, to foos,
to smile, to cry, to meet old friends, to join new/old friends for gathering, to ....

i've given so much for others, and yet so less for myself..
and i guess im taking back my love from others back to myself...
its a hard thing to do
but im trying hard everyday...to be the unusual me .......
the usual me of caring and loving someone so deep...that ive actually given up sacrifising me...


till now...i just feel like flying away...to someplace where there's love for myself......
freedom......
without being binded by all the pressures of the world.

the day my heart couldnt take it anymore...

nothing can explain .this song expresses it all..

张敬轩 断点

静静地陪你走了好远好远
连眼睛红了都没有发现
听着你说你现在的改变
看着我依然最爱你的笑脸
这条旧路依然没有改变
以往的每次路过都是晴天
想起我们有过的从前
泪水就一点一点开始蔓延
我转过我的脸不让你看见
深藏的暗涌已经越来越明显
过完了今天就不要再见面
我害怕每天醒来想你好几遍

我吻过你的脸
你双手曾在我的双肩
感觉有那么甜我那么依恋
每当我闭上眼
我总是可以看见失信的诺言全部都会实现
我吻过你的脸
你已经不在我的身边
我还是祝福你过得好一点
断开的感情线
我不要做断点
只想在睡前再听见你的蜜语甜言

我吻过你的脸
虽然你不在我的身边
我还是祝福你过得好一点
断开的感情线
我不要做断点
只想在睡前再听见你的蜜语甜言


exactly after a year...it all falls back to the same thing...again...

D M T

D.M.T - would just be the title of this post..






no reason..just some regular alphas that would just represent the whole Days, Months and Time... that i've missed blogging, even missed out tonnes of opportunity to gather with my loveones..






here me go...sitting in my newly decorated room..(hah..as if, as nothings has been done), without any bedsheet on the mattress and hunching my back swaying my fingers on the keyboard typing this...




listening to same music album of my month by Eason Chan's new album "DOn't Want 2 Let Go" (freakish nice album, meaningful soothing tunes that would just makes me juicing inside out..even listening to it while im doing my business in the toilet.)




What've been doing most of my Days & Months of my Time, has been divided into:


1.Being Emo once every now and then


2.Trying to TOOTB but failed, as just being lazy to think out of the box.


3. Chipping into my Family Business


4.Making waves in the freelance industry..but ...sigh..


5.Thinking of someone, somewhere, out there


6.Eating and not sporting..which is so not me...


7. Lacking of proper sleep makes my hair drops


8. Cracking my head on what to type here...

hmm...





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boring huh my blog...

well..spark a lil bit of stuff lo then...










i also did some stuff that just makes me happy of doing so...hehe..









let the pictures do the talking only bah...

He Snaps, She Slaps away

He Snaps again, She Show sad face

He SMile~ She Smile~

He Emo~ SHe Emos 2..

He Eyes Sparkles, She Eyes Sparkling ( v both bercurang-an)

guess thats all.

wait for few more months bah....

or dun wait at all...(visit other blogs lo)

Bourbon & Toppo Pretzel Chocolates

it could just be the perfect night..perfect moments.. perfect day..a perfect plan..a perfect US~.....

but it all ended on the day you asked about the meaning of Rihanna's Unfaithful music song, while the radio rhymes the tune of sorrow, sadness, pain, guilt, rejection, lies and unfaithfulness down my car radio speaker. i just kept quiet, as it killing me inside...

The Click 5 - Empty , follows after that..what a good arrangement picked by our local radio stations

i've clean up my room, packed my stuff, arrange my table, a bottle of wine, a photo frame, tidy neat bed, lots of love filling my heart and mind, prepare for your coming..... BUT........


i guess the music of 屋顶 , will just remain in our dreams...

....i think that...

只要能和喜欢的人一起吃东西
就算再简单的味道
也可以让你想念跟感动
这就是平凡中的幸福~!