The day you just need to think..think..

sitting at home, woke up at 1pm as usual again..thinking bout what should i do today..
a series of smses woke me up from my weird unromantically dream which normally people calls nightmare..but i called it...nonsense.. tune to mtv for almost 5-6 hours. laughed, saddened and worried bout what should i really do and response in the problems that are facing by most of the teenagers in the world..or maybe just Malaysia..

quarelled with someone i quarelled for almost 2 years again...everything seems turning away from good, to bad, and worse now..i thought we could make it through it..until the end of days, end of time together..but infact..it did not really happen...this is like the 20th time she said..."let's break up" . . which i had already no feeling and my reaction is still the same..don't care bout it..but..somehow..i think this is the most serious ones which i just heard..

well..forget bout that...sitting down in the couch..don't know what to do...Uni is commencing soon, and with my freaking idiotic thinking that keeps on stopping me from achieving my goals..had to go and leave me one day..and i hope it leaves me a.s.a.p . . as i can't stand any longer anymore....

i wanna be like them, wanna be like what people wanted themselves to be...have a dream...and pursuing their dream day by day...
wondering when can i only be like them..have a dream myself to and be proud of myself one day...why things had to end like this..everyday..people needs to sleep and people needs to eat..why can't i just enjoy each and every moment like any other mutants in this world do...

so...to cut this short...dream big lionel..be proud of what you really are and appreciate those who are staring at you , talking bout you and all the things that you have...be beautiful and macho at the same time. don't let negative thoughts blow your mind away..but let the soul of the body gets you there...into the world of what people normally search for...the world of human nature in the City..

i wanna be a soul mover..moving towards excellence and togetherness.